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Tuesday, February 26, 2013

good bye to bad rubbish

Well as you all know I was letting my ex husband the one who abused me come and see my grand daughter on occasion becuase she loves him and him her he had always treated her like a princess and myself or my daughter was always around when they were together. well he had been ignoring her she has called him several times left voixe messages for him my daughter and I have contacted him on facebook and through yahoo messenger to let him know she really wanted to talk to him, loved and missed him very much but he never respinded to any of them, my grand daughter and him were talkign on the phone every nght then he just stopped for some reason no explanation. well he didn't pay his phone bill this month his phone is on my account and he has aleays paid it since I didn't get paid I suspended his phone. I figure why should he be able to have to have a free phone? He always had a free ride while we married he didn't deserve one now.
He finally messaged me on messenger he was upset I suspended it, didn't talk very nice to me I kept asking him why he was ignoring his grand duaghter(step no blood relation) why he was making her upset and cry when he wouldn't answer the phone when she called(for 3 weeks before I turned the phone off) he refused to answer and still hasn't to this day.
So today I called my phone carrier and had his phone taken off my account for good I hate that I have to pay a early callelation fee but it is well worth it.
My grand daughter is only 6 and she gets upsets thinking about the grandpa she loves very much and can bnot understand his actions, But hse is beggining to understand sadly what kind of person he really is, and doesn't love her like he used to. I hate it that it has to happen, and I hate it that I didn't just say no when he asked to see her when we were no longer together she was only 4 and would have had a better and shorter time to forget him so it is all my fault.
I did her a injustice now it will take her a little longer to forget him but I know eventually she will and it will be for the best.
I realize I am so much better without him I seem to have more money, I seem to be happier except for my chronic pain that keeps me from doing most of the things I love. I don't have to answer to anyone except myself and it feels good.
I just needed to make today the day I break all ties with him for myself and my grand daughter and the phone was the last thing.
He is having a good time in Florida with his blood grand children and son where it is warm I am so hoping he stays there for good that way there will be 1800 miles seperating us and that is the best.
I dont have to worry about trouble then.
He has brainwashed his parents, children brothers, neices, nephews his entire fanily against me but if he would just tell them the things he did to me and my children over the 10 years we were togetherr they would feel a lot different, but he doesn't want them to know so he can be the good guy who suffered. Oh well it used to bother me but it doesn't anymore. I loved him even after we seperated but now there just isn't anything there and I am so happy now with my life it feels good to be where I am.

More to come
God Bless!

Sunday, February 17, 2013

Hello Everyone Happy Sunday to you all!
I don't have a lot to write about today but wanted to make a apperance, I got the painting all done on the kitchen cabinets, I got my bedroom all cleaned up and the awesome vintage desk and endtable in there they look awesome. I finally got my printer hooked up and put on the desk it it so nice to be able to print out coloring pages for my grand daughter and coupons.
I am looking for a small farmhouse table I have been looking in the classifids and on craigslist with no luck. I am hoping that my step dad's son in law can make one for me I just hate the table I have in there now not nice looking. I would like reclaimed wood on the top and I will paint hte table legs white I only have room in my small kitchen for 3 chairs but I will paint them white but I would like to be mismatched.
I did a awesome score at my local Habitat restore 2 beaultiful in almost new condiiton wicker rocking chairs for my front porch now I just need a small wicker table to put in between them I am planning on staining my front porch this spring so they will look awesome.
I haven't talked to my ex in a month he was coming down to see my grand daughter every now and then but decided to go to Florida for some reason he didn't say he was going although he doesn't answer to me. At first my grand daughter was upset because she wanted him to come to see her but then they were talking on the phone almost every night and she was content with that although she still wanted to see him. Then he just stopped talking to her, didn't answer her voice messages, nothing. she would get so upset and run into her room and cry and say grandpa must not love me anymore he diesn't come see me he doesn't talk to me anymore. He has continued to hurt her for 3 weeks I feel so bad for her.
I have left him voice messages, text messenger messages, messages on facebook he just doesn't answer any of them I just wanted to know what was going on thathe is hurting her so much.
He didn't pay his phone bill(he is still on my account) so I tunred his phone off, I weill probabley just take it off my account entirtely. His son texted me asking me if I turned it off and I said yes he said he is at my house and has been for 4 weeks babysitting my kids and I need to get a hold him long story shirt I now know he went to Florida to see his son. He could have just said that.
He rtexted me on messenger and told me I was full of s*** about everything and although I have asked him several times why he is hurting his granddaughter he refuses to answer I do not know why I should have cut off all contact between the 2 of them when I left him in 2010 but she was so heartbroken not seeing him that I let him come down and she was just in her glory. Now though it is so hard for her since she is almost 7 years old hard for her to understand why he doesnt see her or talk to her anymore but Ithink she is getting some idea of the kind of person she really is and that makes it worse on her.
I am hopign it doesn't take her long to forget him now.  have taken all pictures of hima nd his family off the walls, I took all the pictures of him and her out of my scrapbook, my daughter and I try not to mention his name anymore, when she asked to call him we make up some kind of excuse because it just makes her so upset when he doesn't answer. I have thrown away all the things he has gotten her to try and not have any reminders. Once in awhile she finds something in her room that I missed and she starts crying but i will say it is getting easier for you.
I guess when a man is a drunk, abuser, lier, and cherater it is hard for him to be a human even to a 6 year old. sad but so true.
I have been on a domestic violence website and there are so many women who being abused I can't figure out where it goes wrong in men why do they feel the need to abusee and lie cheat and steal and be drunk all the time I just don't get it they must get their jollys out of it for some reason. Very sad.
I am hoping this stops being a epidenicc and more men can treat women like they should be treated.
It hurts a entire family when a man is abusive to his wife/partner.
Be careful all and seek help if you need it don't stay just because you feel you need to because he has threatened you if you leave or because you don't work get out before it is too late.

God Bless all! have a great week!

Wednesday, February 13, 2013


I ghope everone had a good wrdnesdWell Iam seriousley thinking about homeschooling my grand daughter next year she will be in second grade. I am not happy with her school or some of the employees at her school. Plus with the shootings at all the schools I hear about makes me nervous her being there away from me all day.
My grand daughter is having trouble in the mornings getting up and moving, getting dressed, brushing her teeth, breakfast brushign her and teeth. I do not know if it is too early for her to be getting up, something going on at school and she doesn't wanst to go I haven't figured it out yet.
She was sick for a couple days had to miss school then about every other day since then she has a tummy ache, or a headache and wants her temperature taken because maybe she needs to stay home,
Makes me think she has somethign going on at school.
She was really upset when she came home today she was goign with another teacher to study reading the teacher stopped in the office to get a book next thing you know she was in teouble for fooling around and running in the hall the office lady told her teacher and she was told as punishment she had to miss some of hte Valentine"s day party the next day. She says she was not fooling around ahe was standing in line just talkong to her friends while waiting for the teacher.
I can usuallyh tell oif she telling fib and I believe her, so off to the school I go in the morning.
I do not want her punished for something she did not do. I htink sometimes people believe adults over students even if the teacher is wrong, just becuase they are the adult.
Our public school system has laid off amny teachers and I personally thing it is a bad thing, because we have teachers now that have to pull double duty and some classes have too many students to teach in one class and I think it hurts the learning of the students. My grand daughters class only have 19 studednts thatt isn't bad.
I can not afford a private school which I don't now if that would be anybetter or not.
Last year for kndergarten she went to a charter school which I really liked but I wanted er to wear pretty clothes so I put her in public school. I am regretting that decision I think,. The public school has a lot more to offer.

well my eyes are closing I hope everyhoen has a goof night see you tomorrw.
God Bless!!!

Sunday, February 3, 2013

Busy Busy

Happy Sunday to All! Again I haven't been on here in a long time I have been very busy. I did get the fireplace I have been wanting it wasn't the one I saw in the ad it is better it looks like real stone has a dark wood mantle. I just purchased a mantle scarf for it cream color with fringe hanging down all around the edges I can't wait to get it.
I also bought a different grey for my kitchen cabinets, the color I painted them had a bluish tint I did not like this is light grey I got them all painted a coat they look awesome.
I purchased a desk and 2 matching nightstands from my local Habitat Restore they are white with gold trim I love them I only had room for one nightstand in my bedroom it is very small so I gave the other one to my daughter for her room. I haven't been able to use them yet my room is in bad disarray things all over I haven't had time to do anything in there yet.
I painted a vintage chair I found at a sale it was a not so nice yellow I painted it white now to just find some fabric for the seat it will look awesome with the vintage desk.
I also went to the pain Dr I have been having a lot of back pain which is new, my legs hips and feet have been hurting more. She raised the milligrams on my Neurotin  gave me a muscle relaxer, and started me on Cymbalta I have been feeling a little better but I think with all the painting I have been doing is making me hurt worse but it has to be done. Takes me a long time I have to do it in sessions but it is getting done.
As soon as I get my room straightened around I will paint my vintage dresser I found it is in my room still with Spackle all over the drawers waiting to be sanded, then I will start on the magazine rack I bought it will be painted grey and distressed and waxed I purchased my first bag of Webster's chalk paint powder to add to the paint and their wax then I will put it up for sale have a potato bin and a table to do after that will take some time but hoping they look awesome when done.
well here are pictures of the kitchen cabinets I painted and the fireplace I got I hope you like them.

God Bless!