This week has not been a very good for me...guess I just have the blahs. The weather is depressing we had one nice day to speak of it was so hot really, then goes right back down to being cold. It's April where is the nice weather? Today and all weekend it is suppose to rain. Today is sat I do not have to work so I am going to make beds, do laundry, clean the bathroom and my car is thristy.
I was just aggrevated this week my job is so that some days I hate getting ready to go it, I hate the idea I have to worry about lack of money. I am worried a little about my son too, he is a szcophrenic 22 years old he doesn't do a whole lot mostly stays in his basement room and does things on his computer and watches tv, He doesn't clean house to laundry or cook except for he microwave, he doesn't drive and from his therapist he can not live on his own. I worry because i am not gonna live forever and I often wonder what will happen to him, where will he go? I need to think long and hard about that and figure that out. That worries on mind alot lately.
Then my grand daughter's father has visited with her twice which hasn't happened for 4 years. Iam a little torn about that too, because after 4 years he decides he wants to be father. She doesn't know it is her father...yet some day I will tell her if he keeps commign around. Guess I am getting soft in my older years I am not sure if I want him comming around or not last I knew he wasn't a very nice guy, But people can change as they mature and I think she deserve for me to give him a chance. So we will see where it leads in the future.
Makayla has been a handful this week, her mother was here for 3 days and soemitmes it is a little much for her. When the third day evening comes she isn't very nice to her mother, hitting her, yelling at her etc. I just dont know what the problem is, I think maybee resentment because her mother isn't here all the time I just don't know that's another mystery for me.
Makyayla did help me mix a homemade pineapple upside cake it turned out very good, today we are going to attempt a banana cake, as I have bananas that need somehthing down with.
I am goign to have a yard sale next month(may) as I have some things around here that are just takign up space and I can use the money, hoping I can advetise on craigs list, facebook, and hanging up flyers will attract people as I hate to post in our local paper they charge way tooo much.
I didn't get the cabinet that I posted abot previousley when I had the money to buy it it was gone I was soooo bummed but hoping I can find another soon.
well Iam going...for now have some thing s to get done will post later
have a great weekend and thanks for reading
Saturday, April 16, 2011
Monday, March 28, 2011
life.....as a gramma
I folow one of my fellow bloggers the name of her blog is Manny hats mommy which is a awesome title I have found that I am a many hats grandma--which at my age never thought I would be raising a little one...I am not as old as a typical gramma I don't think most are in their 50's and 60's I am in my 40"s. but I find myself a full time caregiver-I don't like to use mommy because she has a mommy..but mommy type I am her chauffeur, her bather, her friend, her cook, her house cleaner, any anything I need to be. which I really love but with working 30 hours a week, taking and picking her up from daycare, paying bills, grocery shopping I am exhausted. to top it off she doesn't ever go to bed before 10pm most nights at 11pm so I have no ME time, anyone have any ideas about that?? but Iam learning to be a kinder person to have more patience..which I never had before and I am doing more things with her which I regret not doing more with my own children becase I was always so busy working 2 jobs. I need to be more frugal not buy so much, balance what little money I have better-I have a roof over our heads, I never lack food or clothing but I could do better, Iam also learnig there are alot of freebie things to do out there. I never looked before now I find if I spend more time looking for freebies they are things that we really enjoy i april we are going to a popcorn tour and a kids day at the Monroe Mall . so I am in a learning process too like so many other new moms. cept I am a gramma
Sunday, March 6, 2011
just sunday 3/6/2011
not much going on this sunday-i made the beds ate breakfast(toaster strudels) watched some cash & cari on the computer, went to craft 2000(local craft store) and got a bulletin board Iam going to decorate and hang up for notes-had to pick up my son from a friend's house, took him to the dollar store then had to go back to the friends house for something he had forgotten. since then been home watching the race and working on a cross stitch. My grand daughter is out to a birthday party with her mother, I hope she is behaving!
You know I talk to some people and they think life is rough, I wish they were in my shoes for 4 days. I have to worry about how my bills are getting paid, worry about my hours being reduced again at work, if my grand daughter is sick how i will got to work,how I will I buy food, how will I put gas in my car. just to name a few. They have to worry about what they are having for dinner, and where are they going this year on vacation. It has been a long time since I had a vacation, they just have NO idea. But I have to live each day raising my grand daughter the best I can. I really don't have alot of complaints I have a nice house with a big yard, I have a beautiful grand duaghter, I have a newer car, I am grateful for the part time job I have not alot of people can find a job. I do wish that I had a second hand store of my own(my drean), and I do wish I had more money to get the things I want but overall we don't go without much.
well time to make dinner
have a good day
You know I talk to some people and they think life is rough, I wish they were in my shoes for 4 days. I have to worry about how my bills are getting paid, worry about my hours being reduced again at work, if my grand daughter is sick how i will got to work,how I will I buy food, how will I put gas in my car. just to name a few. They have to worry about what they are having for dinner, and where are they going this year on vacation. It has been a long time since I had a vacation, they just have NO idea. But I have to live each day raising my grand daughter the best I can. I really don't have alot of complaints I have a nice house with a big yard, I have a beautiful grand duaghter, I have a newer car, I am grateful for the part time job I have not alot of people can find a job. I do wish that I had a second hand store of my own(my drean), and I do wish I had more money to get the things I want but overall we don't go without much.
well time to make dinner
have a good day
Saturday, March 5, 2011
just mumblings.....3/5/2011
Well today is saturday I do not have to work, was going to take my grand daughter down to the popcorn tour it's kids day but...she is still sleeping she didn't go to bed until 11:15 pm last night. so she is tired. I am letting her sleep, I am going to try to get my Avon business going more I am going to pin up my business cards on bullentin boards, order a bunch of samples and mini demos so I have items on hand people want to try, also going to print up flyers and and hand them out. see if these things get my business going good.
I may be getting my hours cut at work again. I am already down to 25 a week going to either have to get a second job or get sellign more avon, I am going down to a second hand store and buying this beautiful old cabinet that needs alot of love Iam going to sand it down paint it a beautiful yellow but new knobs on it, and contact paper in the shelves. I can't wait to see the end result. Hoping to resell it for a profit. If it does good I will buy another piece to refurbish.
Today is my grand duahgter's day with her mother I hope they get along well today laately seems they arent getting along with each other and makes my day off very hectic. Not sure what else I can do. as soon as I figure out how to add pics to my blogs I will post my progress with the cabinet.
Have a great day all!
I may be getting my hours cut at work again. I am already down to 25 a week going to either have to get a second job or get sellign more avon, I am going down to a second hand store and buying this beautiful old cabinet that needs alot of love Iam going to sand it down paint it a beautiful yellow but new knobs on it, and contact paper in the shelves. I can't wait to see the end result. Hoping to resell it for a profit. If it does good I will buy another piece to refurbish.
Today is my grand duahgter's day with her mother I hope they get along well today laately seems they arent getting along with each other and makes my day off very hectic. Not sure what else I can do. as soon as I figure out how to add pics to my blogs I will post my progress with the cabinet.
Have a great day all!
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
A very frustrated Gramma 3/1/2011
I love my granddaughter dearley but today has really tried my patience. I took her out to breakfast at Mcdonalds let her play in the playscape, then we went to her therapy appointment, cam ehome we made a chocolate cake together she cracked the eggs put in the water and helped me with the electric mixer. then we went to a thrift store, stopped and got chili dogs on the way home, and since then she has been impossible.
Grandma will you, grandma. will you, grandma will you? I get back sat down and she is at me again. I do not have 3 mins of peace. It has taken me a very long time to write this blog.
I have yelled at her once today and I feel very bad about it, she is only 4 1/2. I did apologize to her. I just have to remember she IS only 4 1/2 and they are needy little people.
Then my son who is 22 has a slight disabillity has a hard time doing anything for me but expect me to do everything for him. Just gets frustrating. I guess it is becase Iam not used to do everything alone I have always had a significant other until september of 2010, I have been single since and have had to cook take care of the house take care of my grand daughter alone and work all on my own.
well enough of my complaining I am happy to have my grand daughter I love her dearly she is just needy and I need to be more understanding.
Grandma will you, grandma. will you, grandma will you? I get back sat down and she is at me again. I do not have 3 mins of peace. It has taken me a very long time to write this blog.
I have yelled at her once today and I feel very bad about it, she is only 4 1/2. I did apologize to her. I just have to remember she IS only 4 1/2 and they are needy little people.
Then my son who is 22 has a slight disabillity has a hard time doing anything for me but expect me to do everything for him. Just gets frustrating. I guess it is becase Iam not used to do everything alone I have always had a significant other until september of 2010, I have been single since and have had to cook take care of the house take care of my grand daughter alone and work all on my own.
well enough of my complaining I am happy to have my grand daughter I love her dearly she is just needy and I need to be more understanding.
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Drama Queen's Blog: My second day blogging 2/27/2011
Drama Queen's Blog: My second day blogging 2/27/2011: "well my first blog didn't turn out so well, I didn't have one person look at it, so not sure why I am doing it a second it a second day..."
My second day blogging 2/27/2011
well my first blog didn't turn out so well, I didn't have one person look at it, so not sure why I am doing it a second it a second day but who knows I may gey a peeker.
I went and did lots of shopping yesterday got new valances for the kitchen and got them hung hung up curtains in my bedroom, and the bathroom took down the nasty blinds in those rooms down that were here wehn I moved in. now I just gotta find some cool shades for the living room and my grand duahgters room the inside of the house will be complete.
I went to a boutique type place yesterday got a very cool wicker rocker for my back porch for $15.00 now I'm looking around for a wicker table to put next to it. it just needs a little painting and it will be fantastic. I just love wicker outside furniture. I also have a metal glider that I used as a child, I remember sitting out on the proch with my granddad on it all the time, it just needs some paint and it will also be great can't wait to put it out in the back yard.
My daughter is here visiting her daughter, for the reason the visits haven't went very well lately. My grand daughter is mean to her mother in the sence she acts up very badley while she is here. I do not have that problem. That is another thing I need to figue out. I so hope today is a better day. I just want to lay around do some cross stitch and watch NASCAR.
I am hoping the person who has this old much love needed cabinet goes down on his price by 5 bucks so I can buy it. I want to reburbish it. If so I will post a pic of the finished product.Now I gotta learn to use a electric sander, but I hear it isn't hard. lol Hoping to do some things and resell them for some extra money since I got my hours lowered at work I need the extra cash. I would rather do some side jobs in my home so I can be home with my grand daughter instead of getting another outside job.
feel free to check out my sites www.youravon.com/bvan-riper and http://www.brendavr.etsy.com/ for some fantastic items.
well thats the blog for today.
Have a Great day all
I went and did lots of shopping yesterday got new valances for the kitchen and got them hung hung up curtains in my bedroom, and the bathroom took down the nasty blinds in those rooms down that were here wehn I moved in. now I just gotta find some cool shades for the living room and my grand duahgters room the inside of the house will be complete.
I went to a boutique type place yesterday got a very cool wicker rocker for my back porch for $15.00 now I'm looking around for a wicker table to put next to it. it just needs a little painting and it will be fantastic. I just love wicker outside furniture. I also have a metal glider that I used as a child, I remember sitting out on the proch with my granddad on it all the time, it just needs some paint and it will also be great can't wait to put it out in the back yard.
My daughter is here visiting her daughter, for the reason the visits haven't went very well lately. My grand daughter is mean to her mother in the sence she acts up very badley while she is here. I do not have that problem. That is another thing I need to figue out. I so hope today is a better day. I just want to lay around do some cross stitch and watch NASCAR.
I am hoping the person who has this old much love needed cabinet goes down on his price by 5 bucks so I can buy it. I want to reburbish it. If so I will post a pic of the finished product.Now I gotta learn to use a electric sander, but I hear it isn't hard. lol Hoping to do some things and resell them for some extra money since I got my hours lowered at work I need the extra cash. I would rather do some side jobs in my home so I can be home with my grand daughter instead of getting another outside job.
feel free to check out my sites www.youravon.com/bvan-riper and http://www.brendavr.etsy.com/ for some fantastic items.
well thats the blog for today.
Have a Great day all
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